So I need to lose 35 pounds.
35 pounds.... doesn't sound so bad. Right? In 10 months? hmmm. Is that realistic?
I would like to not be completely obese for my sister's wedding next May. I already ordered the dress in a size smaller then I really am, so I gotta do this. I need to lose at least 20 pounds for the wedding, but 35 is my ideal weight goal. Here is the dress I need to fit into:
Plenty of reasons to lost weight:
- stay healthy
- feel better about myself and feel more attractive
- clothes will fit nicer
- look good at Lindsay's wedding
- add years on to my life
- less strain on my back and feet
- breath easier when I lay down
Tools to help me succeed:
- Lose It! app on my phone. It tracks all the food I eat and shows me how much further I have to go on my weight loss journey.
- Gym membership. I have been going 4 times a week for an hour and a half. I do a combo of running on an elliptical, stretching, and weight lifting. I also have a gym partner in my friend, Beth.
- Books. I bought a few books that will keep my motivated including a Chicken Soup for the soul- Weight Loss version, which I read a story a night to help me stay inspired. I also bought some weight loss memoirs of other people who have successfully lost weight.
- Blogs. I bookmarked a few blogs that talk about fitness and weight loss. This will give me new work out ideas, food ideas, and help me stay on track.
- Kickball. I play kickball in a league every Monday night. This help me get a little extra exercise as well and it is so much fun!
The straw that broke the camels back:
There have been several (and I mean several!) times in my life where I have decided to go to the gym or start a diet. I usually do it for a bit and lose a few pounds only to quit when I miss macaroni and cheese and cheese enchiladas.
So I gained like 10 pounds this year. I became the typical fucking girl who gained weight when she got a boyfriend. I know...dumb. Last month I went to NJ to visit my sister who just had a baby. My whole family was there even my mom from Florida. During my trip we had to go to try the bridesmaids dresses on....NIGHTMARE! I hate trying clothes on and being the fatty of the group. To top it off the entire week I was there my family would always find a round about way to mention my weight.
"Amanda, have you seen this cool new app? It tracks your food intake."
"Remember in college when you had a gym membership and lost a bunch of weight? What was that diet you were on?"
"Do you want to go take your little sister on a run?'
These are all other ways of saying "You got fucking fat, maybe you should exercise and stop eating." I get it. Not one person said "Hey Amanda, you look great."
EVERY conversation turned into something about me and my weight. Other than the fact that I got to meet my new niece and see my family, it was the WORST vacation ever. It made me so depressed, I must have secretly cried 7 times while I was there. I came back to LA telling myself I wasn't going to NJ or FL for a long time so hopefully I can look better by the next time everyone sees me. I still have terrible confidence because of that trip. Just when I finally felt good about myself, my life, and my love life, I got kicked in the fucking face. Good one guys.
So here I am. 27, overweight, official member of Body Builders gym in Silverlake, and member of Weight Watchers/Lose It!
Over the next few months I plan to post photos and quotes that are meant to inspire me, document my weight loss journey, and feelings.
I remember when I was at my skinniest and I thought I was so obese. Well this time I want to get back to that weight and actually feel good about myself.
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| Summer of 2006 with Dan and Nate. |
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| New Year's 2012. The only thing cute about this photo is my boyfriend, George. |
Wish me luck, I could definitely use it.
